I don't wanna live my life without you...
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Monday, 5 March 2007 @ 8:28 pm
Just another day... My world...It was a sunny morning, there was a not-so-perfect little girl, with her friend....
Friend : Like OhMyGawddd.... *sounds sissy* Not-so-purfect girl: Like.... YOU SOUND GHEY!! Gosh... i dunnoe wadd to do wif my life... its turning into a routine.... go home, do homework. eat, go msn, chat... I suck... Oh well.... Juz now i was at my k0rk0r de bloggie.... haizz... he actually posted more than 5 posts!! Maybe one of you out there reading this better remind me to update or else i might just abandon this at the end of next month... *Its exhausting trying to be happy everyday, smiling for the crowds around you.... cheering the world... filling your life with their misery...* That's how i feel... Everyday i hav to smile for all my classmates... trying to be cheerful... then i kena scolded sometimes... there's this girl... she's abit weird.. so the whole class dont really tok to her... i tried to be her fren... but it didnt work... Now i think she's trying to add misery to my life... trying to sabo me... she snatch my class "mommie" then now she copy me this copy me that... a sucker for attention... My fren said before...if someone copies you, its the highest form of flattery.. i never liked being flattered... so can't she just leave my life alone?! she made my class ex-co kinda like think i was biased... haizz... *It's not worth it to live in a world where no body wants to talk to you... where no body understands you... Where when you walk on the street, people eye you strangely.... A world where a compliment is rare, unless asked for... A dark misty world where insults are a form of language... I wonder how a human can survive all that... but i don't need to wonder any more... i survived it... till now... how am i gonna live on? i don't know... or do i?* * Do i put on my fake mask of smiles? Smiling outwardly... when inside my heart aches from the effort... this world.. is cruel.. either you hurt yourself and make others happy, or make yourself happy but hurt others... It hurts more when you hurt yourself... I feel like im trapped in a world of darkness... an animal locked in a cage... alone... frightened... unable to go back to freedom....* *time to finish this entry up... and polish my fake mask, to make it glimmer and glitter with what seems to be a smile, a petite body of energy... when actually, my legs and arms feel like lead, when it takes almost all my strength to just lift them up...* *used up... finished... my world is crumbling....* Xiao Deathie... .. |