Was it even possible for her to feel even sadder, to shrink further into her shell?

Rejection,
Abandonment.

Ah. How it hurt. The whole world felt dull, bland, tasteless. Sitting in the classroom, all she could see was the pale light beating upon her flesh, yet all she heard was, "Hey! The coloured lights are so cool!"

The thought pleased her, that she would see him again. It tickled, the thought. And for a fleeting moment, her eyes turned upwards. Then the pain returned, beating relentlessly like the lights above. Her jaw ached from smiling, a smile that never reached her eyes.

Things never turned out as they expected, not then, not now, and certainly not later, as she found out.

Rendezvous.
The word echoed in her ear, as loud as if he had whispered it himself. Strangely, she didn't feel excited, just merely irritated by the slight shower of rain above her head.

Being together was no better, it felt stiff, practiced, not at all like the fluid connection she repeated in her dreams. Every now and then she would hope, that something would happen, something that would make the sun rise again in her dark, dismal world.

Yet, it all dissolved in the last minute. She wish she could say it was warm, or that it sent shivers up her spine. But all it did was envelope her in the comfort of peace, the softness of a hug.

They all said at the last moment, time would stop, but it seemed someone had hit the fast forward button. In a blink of an eye, she was waving goodbye, and a day of dismal chores awaited her.

And hope fluttered in her bosom.

Gah :D something i felt like writing. i have no idea if i'll use it in a story or what, but its cool. i think. :D
(actually i think i've been reading too many of those sarcastic romance novels)

watched eagle eye! it was pretty confusing and cliched and just totally bored me like siao for the first part. haha. but overall i enjoyed it. alot.

i will try to blog but currently my thoughts flit around like butterflies and i cant get myself to stop and do something. properly. and i have alot of things coming up. super stressed.

so there. sorry again!

-- xiiao* deathie ♫

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